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UGLY MONSTER

by ATAN

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1.
“Now I’m going to take you to a place you’ve never been before” Home. Home! Claiming back the ocean! Bring me home. Clench, I’m clenching my teeth out of fear! I fear that this ocean is real I’m clenching my teeth as I kneel! I’m wrecked but my fear isn’t real. C’mon I’ll fix this mess, C’mon I’ll vanish this, C’mon lets walk from this, C’mon I’ll bring you home. The floor is cold al dry C’mon lets wipe your eyes C’mon stand up and try C’mon I’ll bring you home.
2.
Abducted 05:30
It’s a frightening atmosphere, Blinding lights, a shape appears, Satisfying my old fears, Mystifying disappears. I’m am trying to be sincere, Mortifying to you my dear, It’s a striving atmosphere, Mystified me and disappeared! Spin and go, resistance! Leave me alone Scream and go, resistance! Leave me alone. Let yourself be, Abducted with me. Insanity. Set yourself free, It’s going to be Athanasy. Let yourself be, You’re growing with me, Ironically. You’re not alone, Stand out and howl. Let yourself be.
3.
Faces 04:33
Why do we always seem to seek, certainty in the world? To barely accept our skins, To barely accept our skins. Why do we seem to seek, certainty in the world? To barely accept our skins. Get ready, and redefine The future and the past, With ‘NOW there’s all there is’. I AM A THOUSAND FACES ... I AM Remember truth lies beneath our lies. Remember to go in and get it out. Something our one good eye can see, Upon me! remember, remember, Upon me! remember, remember. I guess, its easier...trying...to try... than just...BEING! Why do we seem to seek, certainty in the world? To barely accept our skins. Get ready, and redefine The future and the past, With ‘NOW there’s all there is’. Remember truth lies beneath our lies. Remember to go in and get it out. Something our one good eye can see Upon me! remember, remember, Upon me! remember, remember. Why do we seem to seek, certainty in the world? To barely accept our skins. Get ready, and redefine The future and the past, With ‘NOW there’s all there is’. Upon me! remember. Remember!
4.
Ugly Monster 03:36
Floating... In this space. Confined, to a ‘’body’,’ Aching, is it mine? Not knowing, makes me weary. Wandering, Unaware of an identity Newborn, yet running, RUN! Ugly monster, me! Feeling it, feeling...fearing it, Shivering! Why do you “sugar coat” me idly? What am I to you? Not flowing In this space…confined To Existing, Its Overwhelming Reason by inner nature, Reason by outer nature. Reason, reason, reason! …And then my head falls off. Once every full moon I lose it, Once every blue moon I… find it, In between that space in time, I sip my tea and ask myself... I’m asking, What’s the moon that I’ll see next? Wandering, Unaware of an identity Newborn , yet running, RUN! Ugly monster, me! Feeling it, feeling,...fearing it, Shivering! Why do you “sugar coat” me idly? Don’t lose your path! Stay on the way!
5.
Origami Doll 02:37
Mimic a hostess. Mimic a handshake. Mimic a laughter. Mimic a goddess. Origami doll (The ink is dripping) Right from the porcelain hands (Into the dirty glasses) Origami doll (The lights are blinding) Dim in the lights! Am I “the room”? Or am I part of ‘’the dirt’’? Take me home Take me home, Origami doll Mimic a hostess Mimic a handshake Mimic a laughter Mimic a goddess.
6.
Protected 05:45
Undercover on top of this city, An ‘angel’ sees me. Hides in the shadows. ‘I’m in need to come save you, Stranger, Please!’- OOH! No one needs the knight. Heedless and uptight, Oh! He cant see the light. OOH! Nobody wants the fight. He feels like an Angel , Oh! but his head is out line. Da da da da da Who will spare him, his life. Hey! My head is out of line, I’m falling (I will rise) Try! When the air is cold and dry, When you dared to say goodbye, I will stop to dry your eyes. Fly! When the air is cold and dry, Running through the fields of rye, Jump in to the wind and fly, You’ll rise Rise! If the air is cold and dry If your head is out of line Love will keep you through the night, You’ll Rise! When the air is cold I am protected When my heart is out I am protected When the air is dry I am protected When Im feeling down I am protected When the air is cold and dry, I am Protected When my head is out of line, I am Protected
7.
Words 05:30
Once there was someone who promised to come back on time that night. Once I was someone, Who said they’d tie a lace around the Moon. There was a mirror on the wall T’was frail I tore it down with my bare hands. Unpleasant memory, It sought for fights “ad nauseam”, Now it’s done. And words are spit, No, I can’t stop you, I’d love to say That I Love you I’d never be the same. I thought we had agreed To disagree on what was said before. Once someone understands And don’t assume words vanish in the air. Pour something soothing! “The utmost fear holds also the relief”. And so I wait, I’m watching you It’s just a spell I long for you I’ll never be the same. Suniai (To those who have “been” before, Those who “are” present, And those who have yet to come...listen) Suniai What the hell are you doing? You talk about freedoms You’re just showing off. Its only beginning I want you to forget all you have learned And so I wait, I’m watching you It’s just a spell I long for you I’ll never be the same And so it begins I won’t stop you, You’re free to say I love you too I’ll never be the same.
8.
Sorrow 05:41
I am restless, I am lying on a bathroom floor. Sets the ambience to feel sorrow for the world. Salt traces on the tiles, Over someone’s mourn. I am restless I am crying on a bathroom floor Lies and privilege, Will let me land back in my comfort zone. I am restless I am crying on a bathroom floor. Getting wasted while you’re dying, mining up that wall. It has come to my attention That “no one knows, no one knows’’. There’s so much blood, So much sorrow, But “no one knows, no one knows”. Undermined, A million suns 35, a life underground Working hard to atone. But the slaver’s heart’s a stone. Humble hearts, silver lungs. show your child the work underground Golden mines, have festered sorrow Undermined. While you sit I sweat. Leaf bits I spit. Dear friends My dear friends Ultimately the world is dying, while we. Act like it doesn’t matter ‘IF I HAD A FATHER, WE WOULDN’T LIVE IN THE MOUNTAINS, BUT I DON’T HAVE A FATHER, SO…’ I who did not die, I who kick and scream, Watching me fade away, fade away. I who did not die I who don’t know grief, Watching me fade away, fade away! Please, look at me! I’m dying, I can’t breathe. Please, if you see me dying. Intervene!
9.
The Mind 04:51
Paralyzed with fear, Got my eyes covered, blinding me. My wrists are chained to an inner wall, There is no escape, I got nowhere to run. Running in this maze of emotions, Every footstep’s weakened by the mind, Got a ghost breathing on my neck Loaded gun. This is a just an illusion of the mind I'm being held hostage in my own home'. Running in this maze of emotions Every footstep’s weakened by the mind Got a ghost breathing on my neck Loaded gun. Unleash, Escape! Unleash, Escape! Running in this maze of emotions Every footstep’s weakened by the mind Got a ghost pointing at my head Loaded gun Unleash, Escape! Please set me free. Unleash, Escape
10.
Second Fig 04:43
Safe upon a solid rock the ugly house stands: Come and see my shinny castle built upon the sand! And then our bodies… Well, Lights out. Been falling down, falling down, Been falling drunk often now. Down the stairs A conveyed love affair. Been ducking down, ducking down Your “a la martyr” turns, Sad trail of maidens we leave. (Please set me free) Am I your dream? Your wildest dream? I am your second fig? (down..) Never complains, Never explains, am I your second fig? Come and meet me through the fire (touch me) It won’t last, nor take us higher (whisper gently) Well! this has been open secret, But it’s all burning me down, (Down) Touch me, Whisper gently in... Is this just an illusion? Is this just an illusion! Oh! I am! Just one more dance and then I’m out Just one more dance and then I’m out Down, Im out!
11.
This fear of missing out, out, out! Numbs my soul. Not a doubt I am about to recalibrate, As 'the mother of dreamscapes' My heart's desire, My hair's on fire! It's like I'm sired (I'm sired, I'm sired) To you. Bright fins, Shining with the light, It feels unfathomably white, 'The extremes attenuate time' But it's done, The time..but you're gone. Loud din, Illuminates the grime But underneath there's a sublime layer Of ear-splitting silence, ...the silence... Absentee! Idealized by me, Reminisce! Who do you think you are?! Who do you think you are? Do you think you are... Do you think you are... Do you think you are... Do you think you are... Who you think you are? Do you think you are... WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! Do you think you are... Do you think you ... Do you think you are... Who you think you... Bright fins, Twinning with the light It feel unfathomably white, 'The extremes attenuate time' But it's done, The time...but you're gone. Loud din, Illuminates the grime But underneath there's a sublime layer Of ear-splitting silence, ...the silence... How does one's pain dissembody? Can't get you off of my skin, I wasnt taught how to deal with your absence, You've got permission to leave. (You've got to dissembody) How does a fear dissembody!? I've got you under my under my skin These forkin paths are so bittersweet my spine is curling, I thought your heart was akin! (You've got to dissembody) How does this thing dissembody! I've got you under my skin, These forkin paths are so bittersweet my spine is curling, I thought your heart was akin! (You've got to dissembody)

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Mixing & mastering: Max Morton

Relisted by Lynx Music

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released September 14, 2022

Music: Andrzej Czaplewski
Lyrics: Claudia Moscoso

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